Day 5 Without Dan: Still feeling down

Have been really looking forward to his return since the day that he left for China. He'll be back tmr evening. I doubt I'll be able to meet with him, I'm sure he'll be extremely tired. Hopefully I'll be able to meet with him on Tuesday. I desperately need a hug and kiss from him :)

On the contrary, I haven't been feeling good since early this morning. My tummy has been feeling a tad queasy, and it worsen through the day. After having breakfast and lunch, my condition showed no improvement :(
Ended up having a severe diarrhea and my tummy hurt even more. To add on to that, I've been having a rather terrible sore throat for several days already *sobs. A kiss from Dan will surely remove all pain :)

I took a long afternoon nap, woke up feeling lousy still. I really need Dan with me now - too much has happen in a week, and all I truly yearn for is Dan.

Day 2 Without Dan: I hate that you're away

I hate that you're away,
Because I miss you till its excruciating.

I hate that you're away,
Because I don't get to call or speak to you.

I hate that you're away,
Because I don't get to see or touch you.

I hate that you're away,
Because it feels like forever to receive a reply from you.

I hate that you're away,
Because I'm clueless about your whereabouts and the things that you're doing.

I hate that you're away,
Because all I need and want is for you to be back in my arms again :(

P.S. I'm so not used to Dan being abroad. Its our first time being apart for such a long time too. It sucks to the core, and I'm turning completely into a over-worrying-possessive-sleep deprived girlfriend. I hope I don't drive Dan up the wall too much. I really dislike the way I'm feeling right now. It has only been 2 days, and I'm turning into a psychotic freak. Help?

And Happy Birthday Hubby! I think I've wished you many many times, more than an average person would. I wish I was in Shanghai to throw a celebration for you - I think I've said this many times too =_= This is such a miserable experience for me *sigh...

Day 1 Without Dan: With love to Shanghai

It was just passed 9, when we said our goodbyes. I held him tightly, and if I could - I wouldn't have let him go. He told me not to cry, but crying at that moment was mandatory. This one week is surely lonesome without him.

He reached China safely early this morning, and my heart is at peace that his journey was a smooth one. But my heart aches knowing that I wouldn't be able to hear from him as much as I would like to - I wouldn't be able to nag him about sleeping enough, eating well, or call to just say 'I miss you very much hubby', whenever I choose to.

If you were here, we would spend the holidays together; watching dvds at home or out having some yummy pastries or desserts together. Monday seems so far away, and the only thing I'm looking forward is to your return - and all the great stories and pictures of your performances in Shanghai.

I miss you Daniel..more than this heart is willing to bear..

Dan with a big bow? Yummy! hee

I dread the feeling of missing you, and there isn't a second in a day that goes by without me missing you :)

I yearn to smell the sweet fragrance of the flowers that you gave to me. However they've all withered away, and the smell is nothing but a memory :(

So buy me more flowers ok? *hee

Pretty red roses from Dan (1st Anniversary celebration)

The flowers are wonderful! Thank you sayang, but I'd prefer you wrapped in a big, big, big bow! - the next time round :P

Why have you got to be so charming? :) I want to bite you *Rrrrr! :P

Unrequited love

Let me be utterly honest.
I never once agreed with the statement 'Even if he/she doesn't love me in return, it is alright - what matters is that I'm still able to love he/she freely.'

In my opinion, the most hurtful and painful feeling that anyone could ever experience is caused by unrequited love.
And it is never ok , alright, or fine.

Those that could be completely fine and contented with it, would be God - and since no one is closed to even being God-like, it is never going to be ok to just love someone without wanting to be love in return.

No, I'm not having any issues with Dan (for those that have a tendency of jumping into conclusions) :P
But unfortunately a good friend of mine is going through some trying times in her love life.

It is however challenging for me to not reminisce about the past - where I'd the unwanted 'opportunity' of tasting its bitterness, the intense pain that felt like it would never go away, and having to bear and come to terms with the feeling of being no longer needed or desired.
It was indeed an excruciating period in my life then.

What so wonderful about going through the most dry and agonizing seasons in our lives, specifically in terms of love, is that it only makes us better - a better lover, a better friend, a better companion, and a better soul mate.

Believe me, I'd thoughts and I actually felt that I would never love again - but deep down in our hearts, we all that it isn't true :)
The beauty of love is that it continuous to persevere, even when hope is absent.

Yes, I am truly thankful and ever so grateful that I've found my perfect fit, Dan.
It was not the most enjoyable journey, but it was worth every tear and heartache.

P.S. Happy Belated 1st Anniversary Dan, and I'm only falling more and more in love with you each day :)