Enough is enough!

I can't continue on any longer!!!
I surrender.
I give up.
I'm waving the white flag. Can you see it? Maybe it ain't big enough *tsk

I'm just too exhausted to carry on anymore.
My neck hurts excruciatingly. My heads hurts tremendously, and my brains cells are extremely dehydrated. I'm sure they resemble over-dried raisins under the microscope.
Poor brain, it's way overworked.

After working my a** off for the past two days, I've still not succeeded.
Why is it so hard to produce 60 pages for my thesis writing?!!
I'm 3 pages away, but I'm already hollow inside.
There's nothing left to write, not a single idea, and not even a trace of motivation remains within me.
I might sound like a drama queen, but if you were to be in my shoes, you would understand the agony and pain that I'm going through right now.

My deadline is just a day away.
I think I'll leave it as it is.
If they choose to penalize me, go ahead! Couldn't be bothered anymore.
I thought quality was more important than quantity, but this is Malaysia lah - I should have expected otherwise.

Anyway, grades aren't all that. I should know better.
Honestly, I've no regrets.
I've done my best, my utmost best.
I'm proud of my work, and I've worked hard.
If my examiners wish to think contrarily, whatever lah.
I, yes me, Cassie, couldn't care less!

The good will always prevail. Amen! :)

I like the reds, greens, yellows and blues

When life doesn't go the way I intended it to, I feel like I've been thrown off path to the sideways.
Everything becomes unfamiliar and uneasy. In addition, it kind of pisses me off because I'm being forced to take another route, the one that I wasn't expecting and definitely not the one I had in mind.

The frustration it causes me is just simply overwhelming, and even after shedding many tears I still feel lousy inside. I suddenly find myself feeling like a loser, and it even contorts my thoughts into being an actual one. Anyway, how would I to know the feelings of a loser? Unless I've always been one since the beginning of creation.

The feeling no one can really comprehend. Sometimes I get lost in my own emotions. Its like the raging stormy sea with its violent waves beating against the shore, but out of a sudden it becomes clear, calm, and peaceful again. Everything seems to return to its normality, yet no one truly knows if its truly from deep within or only on the surface.

I'm not exactly sure what I'm writing about. I guess I'm just a little confused, and my emotions have most likely taken me on another roller-coaster ride. It's hard for another to understand the way I'm feeling right now, when I'm not too sure of it myself.

If only life was simple, like black and white. But come to think of it, I've always preferred the reds, yellows, greens, and blues. Their more complicating than the black and white, but they make life a little less dull and so much more intriguing.

I need a hobby

Since completing my thesis, I've been pretty free.

I basically wasted my whole day today doing NOTHING! *hee
I thought of picking up the piano and guitar again, but patience is something I lack greatly :P
I've few good books that I've not started on due to my previous busy schedule in Uni, but I think I still need a break from anything that has too much words.
I would make Dan my hobby, but we all know that is just way impossible *haha
To occupy my time, I've been browsing through pictures of wedding gowns online.
I guess I've reached the age where the thought of wedding bells keeps kicking in :P
Anyway gowns and bells aside, life's been quite mundane.
Dan's currently busy with his FYP, gigs, and internship. Wish I could lend him a hand, but I'm not well-versed in music.
I just desperately need a hobby, any suggestions?
Maybe I should just paint my nails a different colour everyday, or go for an extreme nail make-over like the pic below :P

Chow Taufu is really chow

I've approximately a week before being tied down to a 8-5pm job.
I've a few places and ideas up my sleeves that I yearn to visit and execute, but we'll see how it goes.
I collected my offer letter from Nestle yesterday.
Had no idea their head office was exceptionally huge! Felt like a noob, and was intimidated by it.
I find it hard to digest the fact that I'll be working for a big corporate company. It still feels like a dream.
Anyway I'm just an intern, its not a permanent position. Hence just have to work hard and impress my supervisor, and hope that they'll offer me a good deal after completing my internship period.

On another note, made my first visit to Tmn Connaught's pasar malam. I've been studying in UCSI for 3 years, and I finally took my first step to the so-called longest/largest pasar malam in KL.
Friends told me that the 'Chow Taufu' is a famous delicacy in the psr mlm. Dan and I had a piece, and its stinky-ness was simply appalling.
I will never ever take a bite of 'Chow Taufu' again! Blek!

All things good

I've been lazy, and also busy. Yes, been busy with thesis. But most of the time, I've just been plain lazy *smiles proudly.
Today I handed in my final, and complete copy of my thesis to my supervisor.
Sadly, I didn't make it to 60 pages. Only 45. 49 with references =_= I felt like a loser. Heard that some of my other peers wrote 70-100 pages!
Anyway, I'm not to be blamed. Those darn bacteria just refused to grow, so its mainly their fault. I'd not a single graph or chart or 3D plot to include into my results, because;
No bacteria growth = No results = 0, and 0 = thesis with less than 60 pages.

The bacteria grew in my control test, but not for the 'real-deal' one.

I felt sort of depressed while I was on my way to Uni, but I rubbed the feeling off and kept my mind on all the good people and things that I'm already blessed with :)

1. Valentine's Day was simply amazing. Amazing because I had the privilege of celebrating it with the man I love so very much. On that very special night; we smiled a lot, laughed a lot, ate a lot :) My only regret was that I did not take a single photo when I actually had the camera with me.

My valentine rose :)

We dined at an exquisite French restaurant (if I'm not mistaken, it's called La Bouche or something closed to that *hee) in Bukit Bintang. I guess I felt a little 'pai seh' to snap, snap, snap *hee
The food was yummylicious. It was my first time tasting goose liver. Its taste and texture is very similar to cheese. However the after taste isn't very pleasant. The appetizers were so filling that I ate less than half of my main course. I wish I had a bigger stomach to accommodate 'em all! The escargots was lovely. Dan coned me into having his share, but I really didn't mind because it tasted lovely:p
The place is pricey, but its worth splurging a little more (or much more) for a really delightful and satisfying meal. Darling, thanks again! :)

2. Dinner at Itallianies, The Curve. I've been to Itallianies numerous times for various occassions, but not with my two closest chicks :P It's been more than awhile since the three of us got together, and had a meal.

Joanna is back for good, and Trix has always been around. But she's been busy with work. Jo and I will soon join her in the working arena *yikes

We had Itallianies Mista Salad, Pasta and...

Pepperoni pizza!

But I still prefer the Smoked Salmon pizza *drools...

3. Nestle offered me an internship position!!! Will be collecting my offer letter tmr. They didn't even interview me, which came as a big surprise to me. It is truly God's favour and blessing. I'll be working in one of the world largest food company!! I'm so anxious and excited :) Internship starts next month.

I still have my thesis or VIVA presentation to prepare for, which is on the 27th of Feb (Wednesday). Hence I still have to keep my head in check, and not get too excited over anything yet *hee. Do pray for me yah.

Happy Valentine's Day

From Dan & Cass

Pelabuhan Dickson

Sorry for the lack of updates, have been traveling around a whole lot since the beginning of CNY.
On the fourth day, we went down to Port Dickson. I'll just let the pictures do the story telling :)

The group that went to PD

The beach was clean, and I was quite impressed

We were terrible at building sand castles, so we made a sand pear instead *hee

Just the two of us :)

Spot the little crabby!

We saw this monkey and his buddies chilling up on the trees in the resort that we stayed.

We paid a visit to the mini zoo in PD. To me, it felt more like a farm. Especially with chickens and dunk all over the place. And Dan couldn't resist chasing them around :P

Indian peacock. I can't tell the difference.

I fed the monkey rabbit food *hee

Who said chickens can't rock & roll!

Duckies that flew in from Germany.

Pretty white pigeons.

I had cravings for ostrich meat. Too bad we weren't allowed to slaughter the only one that they had.

I heard rabbit meat taste good too.

Busuk horses and cows.

*yawwwnn.. more humans.

The deadly stare.

CNY with a dash of thesis

I'm sure I'm not the only soul writing my thesis paper on the first day of CNY.
There's been very little progress; from 34 to 36 pages - its pathetic =_=
I'm practically squeezing every drop of brain juice that I have left. Unfortunately, I'm almost 99.9% dry and juice-less.
I know that my thesis project wasn't a failure (or maybe I'm saying that to make me feel better *haha), just so happen the results that I've obtained are all negative.
I guess the only thing that I can take comfort in, is that I gave and did my best. God, I surrender the rest to You :)
Thesis aside, reunion makan in Klang was good. Plenty of food, plenty of leftovers too :)
And this year we had pets to celebrate the new year with; a cat called Orange and a hamster that is yet to be name *hee

To all...

From Dan & Cass

Thesis stress

Its half an hour to 5 am, and I've only 34 written pages. How am I to cough up another 26 pages in just a few more hours?!
Haih... the consequences of having a last-minute lecturer as a thesis supervisor.
I'm so dead la, please make me into a meat pie *sigh

Anyway it's like way impossible for me to even fulfill the minimum page requirement, which is 60.
My results are nil, therefore I've not a single graph or chart to include into my results.
And when there's no results, there's nothing much to discuss about.

I'm so tempted to write this as my conclusion, "This thesis project was a waste of my precious time. The end". :P

Yay me!

I'm going to the SUNBURST KL MUSIC FESTIVAL!!!!!!!! *screams!!!!
Thanks to my darling bf Daniel :) *Hugs & plenty of kisses! *hee
I was so excited from within that I asked Dan the most stupidest question, 'How does the tickets look like?'
Dan answered, 'They look like tickets'
*hee..how embarrassing =_=

Another concert that I'm not bound for

I'm sure many of you would have already heard of the coming Sunburst KL International Music Festival 2008 that's going to be held somewhere in March at Bukit Kiara Equestrian Club.
Many local bands and artistes will be featured in this music fest, but their really not of my concern BECAUSE...the main highlights are JOHN LEGEND, INCUBUS & THE ROOTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As always, the price of the ticket is a huge problem for me - RM200! ^%$*&^$#@%%!!!!!!!!
Please excuse my vulgarity *haha
If concert tickets are always going to be this freaking expensive, I'll never be able to attend my first concert, ever!
Okok..maybe not till I start working la..got a little carried away. Sorry! *haha
Err I did attend the Hillsong United's concert in SIB, which was about 2 years ago. However I wouldn't categorize it as a 'concert' concert, if you get what I mean.

Oh well, I'm so used to missing out on all these kinda good stuff. First it was Switchfoot, and now this. Actually its one extremely long list :( but, I'll survive.

On the contrary, for those of you who have overflowing money, practically gushing out of your wallets - go buy yourself a ticket (and if you're kind-hearted, get a pair for me *hee) and just have a good time la. For more info, click here

If you money-loaded group of ppl are not planning to get them tickets, you should knock yourself in the head - real hard! Yes, literally speaking *haha

P.S. I'm a little cranky, so don't get offended. Its a woman thing *hint hint

An hour wasted, an hour that I'll never gain back

Went for the interview today. He insisted that I attend my first training tmr, from 8-5pm. He even offered me a permanent job as a medical sales rep, but with the condition that I'd to start immediately. I told him that I still had my thesis paper and presentation to complete, hence he wasn't too happy bout that. So at the end of it all, I wasted one hour of my life in that little office of his. Addition to that, he insisted on keeping the original copy of my academic transcript. There goes my RM10. Darn!