Trying it all over again

Spent another day in the lab today, and it was indeed energy-draining.
Been repeating the similar procedures for the similar experiment for the second time in this week, and I'm bored and frustrated.
The end result for the experiment today was slightly better than the previous day, but I was hoping for more than a 'slight improvement'.
I've altered almost all possible variables in the experiment, but everything has been unproductive.
Oh well, I'll just try it again :)

If thou must love me

by Elizabeth Barrett Browning

If thou must love me, let it be for nought
Except for love's sake only. Do not say
"I love her for her smile her look her way
Of speaking gently, for a trick of thought
That falls in well with mine, and certes brought
A sense of ease on such a day"
For these things in themselves, Beloved, may
Be changed, or change for thee, and love, so wrought,
May be unwrought so. Neither love me for
Thine own dear pity's wiping my cheek dry,
A creature might forget to weep, who bore
Thy comfort long, and lose thy love thereby!
But love me for love's sake, that evermore
Thou may'st love on, through love's eternity.

Bass player + cupcakes

Spent the day out with the bass player today :) We went to Pavilion! Typical shopping mall, but I kind of fancy the simple interior of the mall. We didn't spend much of our time there, just went for a short tour and had ice-cream :)

We then urgent to Berjaya Times Square, and bought tickets to watch Resident Evil *grins evillyThe bass player then took me to Asia Heritage Row, cause he insisted on treating me cupcakes :) and we had quite sometime before the movie.

Bisou is a small cafe located below Wine Room, if I'm not mistaken. It has a comfy atmosphere, and we sort of had the place to ourselves since there weren't many customers. Halloween is just around the corner, hence they tucked little spiders among the flowers that were placed on the tables *uniquely cute! hee

We tried 2 cupcakes; Dark Secret and Eye Candy. We both preferred Dark Secret, cause it wasn't too sweet compared to Eye Candy. However their both equally delicious :) Unfortunately the cupcakes are rather pricey; RM 5 for one.

We took the monorail back to BTS, and went for the movie. Had my eyes closed most of the time *hee. The movie wasn't up to our expectations - it could have been better.

After the movie, we went down to PJ for dinner. We had dinner at Green Wood cafe in SS2. Had Slipper Lobster with Fettuccini in Tomato Sauce.

And the bass player ordered beef burger with mashed potatoes. We had to order the gravy separately, which was rather weird. Both tasted mediocre, but it was filling to our tummies.

I enjoyed myself very much, always do when I'm with the bass player :) He spoils me rotten! *hee

I want to go out!

This is the first time, in my ENTIRE LIFE that I've not gone anywhere since the completion of my final exams last Thursday. Usually on the day or the day after, I would be out; gallivanting and celebrating with friends. However, I've been no where but home. I'm so tempted to drive myself to a nearby mall; or to take the LRT up to KL, to check out Pavilion - the new mall that I've been wanting to visit since its opening, which was somewhere early of this month. But its really no fun to go out alone; I've done it many times before and its always better to have a companion. Unfortunately, most of my friends are back in their hometowns or most likely busy with their other halves, and the bass player has his hands quite full with arrangements etc. If you're free - yes YOU! The one reading this post, give me a call and take me out! Hahaha...

So in love with you

Have you ever been so in love that you think of only him every second of the day? Even when he isn't around, you're still able to smell his sweet scent so strongly; and though you've been seeing him for days, you still miss him so much - like you've not seen him for ages; and the days apart from him - feels like eternity. Not to mention, you're so in love with him that it makes your heart ache in a good way; and every single word uttered by him are like precious jewels. You love him very deeply, till you tend to be upset over the smallest and pettiest matter.

I proudly raise my hand up high and admit, that I've been so crazily in love with the bass player - and all that is stated above, is a precise description of me *hee. Though we've been apart for years, my heart just refused to stop loving him.

I've not blog much about our relationship, and it is not because I'm shy about it - but its really difficult to explain how wonderful it has been, just simply being around him. There are no words to describe him; words that would actually do him justice, because he is more than amazing!

I'm truly thankful to have found someone that loves me, as much as I love him. I'm very much aware that not many are as fortunate as we are, but don't ever be disheartened - I believe everyone will find their true love someday. I'm glad that I've found mine :)

Darling, I love you so very much!

No longer bound by exams

I can finally scream from the top of my lungs; 'The exams are OVER!! FOREVER!!!' Muahahahaha... please excuse my insanity, I just couldn't contain it any longer *hee
While one horrible ordeal has come to its end, there's thesis to give me another ride of my life.
Met with the lecturer today, according to the missy; I'm way off schedule and I should quicken my pace or I wouldn't be able to complete my thesis on time.
Therefore, there wouldn't be any holiday break for me - I'll be back in Uni next week, working my a** off in the lab everyday!
The lab will be my second home, and bacteria will be my best friend for the coming 2 months. Addition to that, paper work would be my past time.
The worst part of it all, is that I wouldn't be able to spend as much time as I would like with the bass player. I miss him so terribly, till it makes my heart ache excruciatingly.
And I'll definitely have less time for outings with friends - but I'll try my utmost best to manage my time well, in hope that there'll be always time for the people that I love! :)

The final of the finals

I'll be sitting for the very final of my final exams tmr! *hee

My last paper is on Thursday, and from that day onwards; I'll be exam-free forever, and ever!! Wahahahahahaha... well, if I've no intentions of taking Masters after graduation :P
I guess not, since I intend to tie the knot upon graduation - and will start reproducing very shortly after getting hitched! hahaha.. just joking :P I can see the bass player wiping sweat off his forehead *grins mischievously.

I've mixed feeling about the final exams. I'm feeling a tad stress, but I've also the 'tidak peduli' or could-no-longer-be-bothered feeling. I'm basically worried, yet not worried. Does that make sense to you? In other words, I'm in a confused state!

However by Thursday afternoon, I'll be the happiest person alive - and I'll have a grand celebration and be painting the town red! Wee hoo!!! As if that will ever happen haha... Most likely I'll just do a back-flip and wave pom-poms secretly in my heart *hee.

Anyway, all the best to my mates. Let's kick some paper butts tmr hahahaha!

P.S. I'm now officially stressed out!

How Do I Love Thee?

by Elizabeth Barrett Browning.

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love with a passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

Random yet worthy thoughts

We live in a world where people tend to be so caught up with the 'latest' or 'trendiest' or 'hippest' events or happenings or even material possessions. It's not to say that I'm totally ignorant or take no complete interest in such matters, is just that I'm not easily impressed.So what if Malaysia has finally sent their first astronaut out into space, or if Britney Spear won or loss full custody of her children, or whether the Bohemian style is in fashion again...Everything else doesn't really matter, when we still have so much suffering, injustice, and poverty in the world. I'm not implementing that we can eradicate it all overnight, it would take an extremely long period to make it possible; hence it requires our constant attention - it's just sad that we're all paying a little too much attention on things that are less important, and on matters that should deserve less of our attention. And I hope, you're not easily impressed as well.

Studying too much does make my mind wonder and ponder even more than usual.... but it's a good subject to think about :)

Home Alone

Home alone on a Friday night. Ordered 'bubur' McD for dinner. Studied while waiting for my dinner to arrive. Had my 'bubur' while watching one of my favourite cooking program; 'Nigella Feast'. Continued watching a few more other cooking programs, and am suddenly motivated to cook *hee. The bass player called - now, I miss him even more :(
I think I'll get back to studying, since there's nothing much to do and talk to online.

Lalalalala....

I'm feeling LAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZY!!!!

More randomness

Back in KL. The holiday trip to Malacca wasn't great or fun. Have been trying my utmost best to study for my very final exam. The migraine has made a comeback. The bass player has been very supportive and a huge encouragement to me. The act of painting my nails has no longer have a relaxing effect on me :(

Too many random posts

Life becomes a drag when;

(a) I'm broke
(b) There's final exams to study for
(c) I feel fat (Do take note, I said "feel")
(d) I'm forced to go for a holiday trip during my study week
(e) I can't paint my nails - now that I'm feeling a tad stressed (All 5 decided to harden simultaneously)
(f) I can't afford to shop or feast with friends (due to deprived freedom, money and time)
(g) I miss the bass player terribly :(

However I am thankful for;
(a) God (Who's ever forgiving & understanding)
(b) My family (Though its a lil dysfunctional - there's no perfect one :P)
(c) Bass player (He never fails to put a smile on my face :) )
(d) Friends (Life would be blue without 'em)
(e) Daily blessings that come in rather small and unexpected packages :)

And a special shout out to dearest Jo;

Finally you're 22 too *hee

Hey Malacca, its me again!

Will be heading down to Malacca (again!) for a family trip.
Cameron Highlands was the first option, but somehow Malacca seemed more appealing to my family.
If anyone wants anything (not exactly anything-lah *hee) from Malacca, just send me a sms - latest Monday morning :)
I can summarize this family holiday in just word; FOOD! :P

The fatty bug

I still feel fat, and I've a mild sore throat - The Thai tom yam was just too spicy for me *hee

Wanting to feel 'slim' again *hahaha :p

A fatty post

I feel fat! I'm sure that's not the first time you've heard that statement coming out from my mouth :P

We had our final Nutrition & Metabolism lab session for this semester, and today's experiment was all about anthropometry.
What's anthropometry? - some of you may asked.
It involves measurements of the size and proportion of the body; weight, height, skinfold thickness etc.
And we also carried out various additional tests; such as, total body fat and basal metabolic rate analysis.

If you've no idea what the heck I'm blogging about, just go google it *hee So yeah, each one of us had to take our own measurements and calculate our Body Mass Index (BMI) etc.

(Stole this pic from Spunkz's blog *hee)

I've a normal BMI; 20 kg/(m x m), which means my weight is proportion to my height. However, I surprisingly have a rather high percentage of total body fat!! I'm not fat, but I've lost of fats in me - in layman term.
According to WHO (I'll knock your head with my knuckles, if you don't know what WHO stands for *hee), a healthy female individual has no more than 32% of total body fats.
Guess what's mine?!
Mine is within the range of 30 - 34%! Couldn't get an accurate reading because the analyzer stated 30%, while the calculated result was 34%.
Teh fly was as shocked as I was. I've a very normal body frame and weight, hence having a relatively high percentage of body fat isn't exactly normal.
I can be considered a rather big eater - till I've been bestowed the nickname 'Foodzilla' by my Uni mates 0_0
And I openly admit that food is my greatest weakness, I would probably trade my soul for a year-supply of pastries and deserts *hee
Anyway, just because I've a high body fat percentage it doesn't mean I'm giving up on all the high sugar and fat foods that I love.
I guess I've to start exercising regularly and cut down on my daily calorie intake - bummer :(
I'll definitely miss my quite regular intakes of fast foods, donuts, cakes and all that is hazardous to my health *boo hoo
It ain't fair that I ain't fat, but I'm high in fats *sniffs

Being able to love is a privilege.

The b'day date

The birthday date with the bass player was indeed a delightful one :)

You're finally 22!! *squeezes the bass player's cheeks :PI made him the b'day card. Nice?

I knew he most likely wouldn't allow me to buy him the shirt as his b'day gift, so I bought him mini muffins and cookies from Famous Amos :) One of the best ways to spoil and pamper the person that I love *hee

The mini muffins sat in my room the whole afternoon, and they kept tempting me 0_0 Thankfully I had a rather strong sense of self-control yesterday, which is extremely rare when it comes to food *hee

We went to Paddington's House of Pancakes again :) And had yummy food again :P

It's called Boston - had a generous amount of cheese and seafoods

Desert!! The blintzers were just out-of-this-world!! *drools

The bass player did some shopping. It was fun and something out of the norm, cause we're usually shopping for me instead *hee

Before the date ended, we went for a movie 'I now pronounce you Chuck and Harry'. This movie will tickle your funny bone from the beginning and till the very last second of the show - 100% guaranteed :)Hence if you're feeling a lil down, you'll feel a whole lot better after the movie - but you've got to be 18 and above to watch it *hee

I always have a great time when I'm with the bass player, I hope you enjoyed yourself too :)

A special day for a special someone :)

Today's my boyfriend's b'day..err, I meant the bass player :P
I'll be meeting with him to celebrate his special day in about 4 hours.
Can't wait to see him! I always get an adrenaline rush and plenty of goosebumps when I'm about to meet with him *hee
I guess it's pretty obvious that I'm deeply in love with the bass player :)
Happy Birthday, sayang!

Disconnected

I feel a little detached...
As if, people around me has forgotten about me...to include me, and make me a part of their lives.
Maybe, this feeling of isolation is one of the side effects of the medication...
Whatever it is, I do feel a little left out...
I'll brush it off eventually...

Definitely not the best kind of feeling, to start off a new month..