We're growing, evolving..hmm, i think changing is a better word (hehe).
Some grew taller, and a few were just doomed to remain short (lolx just jk).
A handful are heavier than before, and many are close to being supermodels.
Most of us are still tangled up in our studies, while a few are already in the corporate world.
Many are no longer 'available', while many are still flying solo.
Some are still lovable as they have always been, while some took a turn and became devilish.
Most went their separate ways, and very few stayed close together.
Yet whatever changes that have taken place, true friends have a way of sticking around,
Showing that they still love and care; the way that they always do.
Happy Friendship Day!

Specially dedicated to all me friends =)

Ps. I know im a few days early, but its never too early to apprepriate the ones i love =)

Doom!

My head was pounding furiously, as soon as i got back from uni yesterday. Im not sure whether if it was a migraine or just the usual headache, or if it was caused by the 2 slices of cheese that i ate the previous day or maybe due to the unusually long-tedious-patience-required experiment that we carried out yesterday.

Anyhow, it really doesnt matter. Im just glad that it is finally gone! However, i still feel a lil tensed-up in the head.

Haih.. anywayz, i got to get going. Have one miserable hour of class today, if it wasnt compulsary-i would definitely skip it but i doubt i would, since i left lab manual in uni yesterday. Without it, im doom!

A change

Everyone dislike having to fall or fail from time to time, even though it is always easier to stand up on our two feet again-the next time round.

I especially despise having to go through such cycle. There were times that i almost lost all hope, but God has always been faithfully cheering me on, and im thankful that He has never once stop.

The first semester of my second year in uni has been and is one of the most challenging period in my life. It has been a nightmare; juggling responsibilities from home, uni and church.

Managing my priorities have been a constant struggle, and it still is. However, the busyness and demanding present semester has thought me tremendously.

Honestly, i truly dread the current semester in uni but im glad that i am experiencing every moment of it.

God revealed so much more of myself through times like these, and instead of hardening my heart, being egoistic, and acting like miss know-it-all; i am ever so joyous that i lowered down my pride, to be teachable and humble because i realise that i knew nothing-nothing compared to what my Lord needed to teach me.

My final exams are in less than 3 weeks time; it will be from the 8th to 10th of August, leaving me with trifle time to study. Yet im at peace and not anxious, cause i know that i can lean on my Lord who is bigger than all the cares of this world.

Ive been coming across the topic of 'fasting' lately. I want God to truly change my life, and i want it to be evident. I believe if im desperate for a change, i need to get down on my knees and start praying earnestly; at times, fasting is also required. Hence ive decided to go for the Daniel's fast (fruits, vegetables, wheat, bran, rice etc) for 30 days; meaning no meats, eggs and junks for a month. I will not be fasting from food only, but also the tv and my baby i.e. laptop-la (im practically online 24/7).

It aint going to be a breeze or a snap of the fingers, but im willing to persevere to achieve much more; what God originally intended for me.

where's my breakfast?

*Yawns... Its 7.42 am on a Saturday morning. Was awake earlier, but i chose to remain in bed; hoping that i'll fall asleep again but it did not availed.

Slept at 8 ++ pm last night; spend the whole day in uni yesterday-had classes in the morning, celebrated makcik melissa's b'day in pizza hutz during lunch; tried the new cheesy bites and it tasted alright, not fantastic though, and had a seminar from late afternoon till evening; concerning the in's and out's of job interviews-the speaker was alright too, but i think he's a pervert. He kept assuming that all of us were thinking 'dirty' when he said specific 'things'. Honestly, we were all too tired to even think. My conclusion for the whole seminar is; the speaker is perverted, no doubt about that lolx.

I wasted my friday away by sleeping, wanted to complete one of my lab report but i was just too exhausted. So much so, that i also missed the friday prayer meeting that was held in my hse. Thankfully, mum and dad did not mind. I believe that they understood; their poor daughter was dead tired. I would have fallen asleep while prayers were been said lolx. Dont you dare laugh, im sure it happened to you before. To put it in a nicer context; i was 'resting' in God's presence hehe..

Im snacking on a pear, and bloggin at a same time. Sort of difficult typing with just one hand. Waiting for mum & dad to get home from 'pasar pagi'. I wonder if their going to buy breakfast, or if its going to be just bread. Either one will do, cause im really hungry.

Hmm...ive no idea on what to blog, and i dont want to switch on the ranting mode; im also getting fed-up from it. Oh well, i'll go switch on the tv and see what's on Astro. Byeee!!!

Randomness

Ive been busy as a bee. Actually, im still am. Y'know, with the usual; assignments, lab reports and exams. I need not elaborate more because it would only bore your brains out, and jo will start whining again lolx.

Yet i am ever so tempted to rant about my results, and the hectiness of this semester. It is practically driving everyone in uni towards insanity, and demotivating our fighting spirits slowly and not to mention, a little at a time.

However, i will refrain myself from doing so and probably write something about...Mmmm...nature? hehe.. Jo, thanks for that suggestion but i havent been taking much notice of my surroundings. I heard that its really hazy in klang and penang, but it isnt in PJ and KL-just really hot and sunny. It hasnt been raining, thus its getting hotter by the day.

No matter rain or shine, the highways are always congested and the traffic; extremely heavy. Its out of context but just wanted to type it down anywayz. lolx

Other than the sauna-like weather and the horrendous traffic jams, all is well. I guess..

Oh yeah, Siti Nurhaliza is exhanging vowes with some old Datuk this coming August. Its a big hu-ha back here in Malaysia, if you (Jo) wanted to know hehe. Btw, any celebrities getting hitch in Aust? hehe

I havent been updating myself with the latest movie either, Trix keeps telling me about the hunky 'Superman' but i dont fancy him. He's got the pretty-boy face, and i dont find metrosexual guys attractive lolx. No offence yah hehe.

According to my uni mates, Pirates of the Carribean 2 is pretty good. However, ive gotten lots of mixed opinions about the movie. Hence, i decided to not watch it in the cinema. Waiting for the dvd from my slow-mo cousin and i get to save money, cause the mega sale is back!!! Muahaha...to be specific, its starting on the 23rd of July.

BUT..ssshh, there's always a 'but'. Since my finals are from the 8th to 10th August, ive to put my shopping plans on hold and only activate it after the finals. Thank God that the sale ends on the 3rd of Sept! *Grins (a BIG one) lolx.

To all ye faithfull readers of my blog, i shall resume later and end this post with a simple -Goodbye! hehe

Food can be evil

Im always aching somewhere. Most of the time, its the head; which is known as the headache. At times, its the back; and its call backache. Recently, its the stomach; famously known as stomach ache.

I should be crown 'Queen of all aches', and i would surely reign forever! haha.. Not to mention, i would never run out of aches. Hence, dont you agree that im the most deserving one for the throne? ;pA crown fit for the 'Queen of aches'...sweeeeet..

Why have i been getting stomach aches lately?

Please dont start throwing shoes and sticks at me, cause ive realised for a very long time that im the only one to blame, but you're welcome to throw money at me; especially the darker colour ones with larger digits and additional zeroes lolx

Okok, back to the stomach ache. As ive mentioned before, when im in deep stress; i eat! And i eat basically everything that i can get my hands on.

In my previous posts, i did mention that ive began to eat normally but due to the recent rise in the level of stress and pressure; my eating habits is back to square one!

Ive been dumping in all sorts of junk into my system this whole week; uncountable pieces of chocolate chip cookies (i still prefer Chipsmore compared to Chips Ahoy!, the best is still Famous Cookies but it cost a bom!), stack high of cup instant noodles (the tradisional chicken flavour is still the tastiest), 3 packets of biscuits (in 3 days, i dont fancy the TIGER brand but my aunt keeps buying 'em for us, and i keep eating 'em), a minimum of 4 slices of bread a day (with kaya & butter, spread over slightly toasted bread), 2 packets of rojak (in less than 5 days, ive been craving for rojak lately-and no, im not pregnant), and various kinds.

Chipsmore; looks good, taste good but you wont end up looking good-trust me!


Noodles! Yummy! Umm..but noodles in the cup, are definitely a no-no. I should know better, im a nutritionist-to-be!



It'll take a day or more to list all of the foods that ive been consuming for less than 5 days. Yes i know, its my fault. I wouldnt be suffering from stomach aches if i hadnt ate so much, especially junks. Ive been going through day after day, with exceptionally painful stomach aches. Addition to that, the long visits to the toilet has been very unpleasant. I shoudnt be complaining, im not even worthy of doing so - because it is my own doing.

So i'll just shut up now, bear the pain and stop shoving junks into my mouth.

God, help me!

Food & Biology fondness

One report down, many more hundreds to go! Oh, the horror!

Tired from writing endless reports, i wonder when will it all come to an end?

I guess for now, the word 'end' does not exist in my dictionary.

Week after week is the same-old-boring routine; if its not lab reports, its assignments. If its not assignments, its the mid-terms. If its not the mid-terms, its some truly-unnecessary-test.

Im not implying that im not enjoying my days in uni; but at present, its kind of horrible due to its busyness and hecticness.

Waste management is surely one tough subject. Why isnt it an elective subject? Its sort of interesting; i enjoyed the trip to Indah Water, but when it comes to the engineering theories concerning the equipments used for the treatment of waste..it is sooooooo complicated!!!

Im so glad im not taking an engineering course, ive never been a fan of physics. Im more a biology-chemistry lover lolx.

If degrees in biology were offered locally, i would definitely be a biologist-in-the-making right now hehe.

Oh well, but im a bigger fan of food! lolx Hence, the course im pursuing right now is definitely suitable for an obsessive-food-lover B)

Ranting bussiness

My piece of junk (POJ) has been giving me problems lately. Btw, the POJ is my slow-lousy-fragile HP laptop that i bought last year.

It hangs when im opening a PDF file; not even TWO files, ONE ONLY!! And it takes forever to respond again! Yer, can get high blood pressure-LAH!

Im in the middle of writting my food chemistry lab reports, and i can literally vomit blood. Its so tedious and addition to that, i cant find any information on one of the experiment; Nelson method.

Few hours have gone by, and im stuck with the same report. Really cant take it anymore! My eyelids are heavy. Oh crap! I havent even showered. Mum will start nagging soon cause she doesnt like me taking very late night showers.

Tmr another whole day in uni, 8 am till 5 pm again! Two days in a row, is suicidal la. Hai.. thank God is the last lab for food chem tmr. The following weeks would be slightly flexible, but come to think of it-maybe not. Since there's still presentation, another yucky test, and plenty more of lab reports to write for metabolic biochemistry and waste management.

Ive been complaining nonstop, so sorry but need to let 'em all out. Its good, to clear the system lolx. I sound like some new age freak, btw im not. No offence to those who are.

Where are the holidays when im really in need of 'em?? Haih.. hidup ini memang penuh dengan cabaran.

Im so stressed that im beginning to eat rubbish (junk foods) again! Oh God, HELP ME!!

I truly need Your mercy and grace, cause im running low of 'em.

Indah water trip

Went to indah water, kajang today. This educational outing was part of our Waste Management subject. Was a lil hesistant to go at first, cause the thought of visiting a sewage treatment plant didnt sound intriguing.

Guess what?! I had fun..haha. The plant was smaller than we expected it to be because it was just a small branch. The main one is in putrajaya.

It was really sunny too, and there werent any shade to hide under. Hence got 'roasted' a lil lolx. It smelled a lil too..but it wasnt too bad either.

Took lots of pictures of the plant, not because its beautiful but their for our report hehe.

Well the below pics are the few that had my face in it.. but took most of it in the bus..y'know la, friends...they all suka main-main camera..so posed, sini-sana for their sake..haha


Wayne and me. We were all burning red and sweaty after the trip..hehe










































The 'fly' and me. The 'fly' was so mesmerized with the Classifier(its an equipment used to remove sendiments) lolx

There are more pics, but have not gotten it from my friend yet. If im not too lazy, i'll upload it later.

Want to take a bath...drench in sweat, and feeling icky..lolx

To trix: I told you ive put on weight, but lost a lil weight only. My face more rounder. Look closely.

Trix is not observant enough lolx

*starts chanting* Im gonna lose weight...im gonna lose weight 20x

To the 'fly': I know you're getting paranoid lolx

caring

I realise the more you care about a particular object, person or even a situation, the more you're bound to get hurt.

Many times ive questioned myself; in the first place, why do i even bother?

But i believe its only human to do so, because God has never stop caring. Even though ive disobeyed and hurt Him uncountable times, He has always been the same loving Saviour; that still cares.

So often ive expressed my concern using the wrong and inappropriate approaches, which have lead people to misinterpret my true intention; stirring unnecessary conflits and misunderstandings between ppl.

Im deeply sorry, but its because i only care.

Im never going to stop caring, because it would only be wrong. However, i choose to remain silent this time and to be a lil ignorant.

Some people might think im being selfish by doing so, but im tired of having to please ppl. Its impossible to please man, and it will never be possible.

Im just going to fully care about what God thinks of me. Even though He has very high standards, yet it is still possible to please Him =)

Shoots! I totally forgot about the chicken steaming in the wok!! Haih..almost burnt down my house..blogging punya fault la..

Haih...sis 'marah-ing' me now...*sob sob

Bodoh punya ayam..

In debt

Im in debt!! Definitely not financially but with apologies, especially to two specific people; miss Jo and Dinash. Im truly, extremely, sincerely sorry for spending very little or not even a single time with your guys. Please forgive me, have been exceptionally bz with uni. Second year of uni is no honeymoon. Thus, the amount of work is just plain crazy!

My sister will be going down to klang this sat, i thought of meeting up with dinash cause ive not met him since he got back from indonesia last month. Im a terrible pet sis. A part of me really wants to, but taking into account the load of work that i have to complete; makes me reconsider the whole idea again.

Hmm..i'll just decide tmr, and maybe give him a call first; knowing dinash, he always have endless activities to attend to.

The weather has been burning-hot these whole week. I like the sun, but the current weather is a lil too hot for even a sun-loving person.

Ive also just recovered from diarrhoea, sore throat and migraines that seem to come and go, as they please. I agree with what my mum and sis said; that there's a trend when it comes to me being ill. It always occur when im having exams, and that really sucks! It makes the whole revision/preparation stage TREMENDOUSLY difficult!

Try studying with a migraine, you might just end up with a brain tumor haha.. the intensity of the pain is simply unbearable.

Anywayz, there's never ending to these 'so-called' bad news, so i'll just stop here and go on with the good ones; ive not binge/overeat for slightly over a week! *claps frantically hehe. Ive been eating properly, im no longer a junkie! *skips around... and as a bonus; ive lost weight!! Weee..though the amount ive lost isnt large, but good things come in small packages =) These are small changes in my life that im really proud of, thanks to the 'fly' for her endless naggings. It actually worked! lolx Finally, im eating like every other human.

To the 'fly'; Im NO alien, ok? Bleh! :P I just used to eat alot, and i dont study 24/7. Ive a life y'know..hehe

To miss Jo; hope you're doing fine, and that you're enjoying the holidays. Will catch up with you real soon. So sorry for not spending much time with you online, and for not replying your mail. Please do accept my apologies. Take care yah. Will see you online real soon.