Pluto

Lately, ive been coming across numerous articles in the newspaper concerning Pluto. Yes, im refering to the once-called-planet; Pluto.

I came across a website with funny cartoons concerning the smallest and coldest ex-planet in our solar system. Its hilarious!

Frustration

Have you ever felt so miserable and frustrated with a situation; one that keeps making you go round in circles?

That you feel like smashing everything that comes into your way?

And even if you screamed from the top of your lungs, it wouldnt make you feel better?

Well, thats how i would describe the way im feeling right now.

Though i should be celebrating and rejoicing because i did rather well for my previous final exams, however the dilemma im currently in now is overwhelming.

Im also fed-up with having to constantly be in such a situation, i wish it would take a 180 degrees turn.

Ive no desire of wanting to run in circles for the rest of my life, i want OUT!

I guess most of you would be probably scratching your heads, wondering what the heck is cassie blogging about.

Ive no intention on being specific or detailed about it.

Sorry.

Just needed to express my frustration.. *sigh

But it would be wrong for me to not thank God for the good grades (2 As & 2Bs) ive obtained; Thank You!

Addition to that, am glad that my parents are safely home from the Philipines =)

Sacrifice

This week has been a routine; by 7.15 to 7.30 am, i'll drag myself out of bed even though there's no reason to be awake so early. Well my reason for doing so is DISCIPLINE! Just because im on holidays, it does not permit me to slack or to become lazy.

On the contrary, is also due to my up-bringing; my mum would NEVER allow me to sleep beyond 9 am! If im not up by then, she'll start screaming and yelling, or my dad might just surprise me by pouring a bottle of COLD WATER from the fridge, ON to MY FACE! * shivers.. and not to mention, he has done so on various occasions.

Waking up so early, provides me with ample time to do whatever that i desire, but since my parents aren't around; they're on mission trip in the Philippines, ive been home all week; cooking mostly, since ive 3 sisters to feed hehe.

Ive received many invitations from friends to tour the KL city, to makan, to go shopping etc. I was ever so tempted to just leave my responsibilities at home, and go wild! hehe.. However, i feel obligated to be home with my other sisters because my parents have entrusted me to take good care of them, and to ensure there's good-homecook food on the table for each meal.

Even though my elder sister is around to order take aways, since cooking isnt her cup of tea *tee hee ...and she even gave me the green light to have fun with my friends, it just wouldnt be right.

Ive learnt that lil sacrifices have to be made constantly, every day. Maybe a majority would disagree with me; that it is unfair and it shouldnt be as such, but its worth sacrificing a lil for the people i love each and every day.

In my opinion, the act of sacrifice is one of the most honourable act a man can do for another. It was so clearly shown when Jesus was hung on the cross, on our behalf; an act of sacrifice that no man can ever do, and for that i am truly grateful.

Hence learning to sacrifice a lil each day for the people that we love, shows that it is POSSIBLE to be CHRIST-LIKE =)

Irony

Ive been too lazy to blog. Anywayz, is there such a thing as 'too lazy'? lolx ... Umm, you dont have to answer that.

Its the final week of my holidays, and it has REALLY been- a holiday! Other than cooking, and the occasional cleaning and washing; i practically spend my days lying on my belly, watching the 'one-eye-monster' aka. TV, or facing the screen of my laptop.

Addition to that, ive been praying earnestly and hoping that my eyesight will not deteriorate any further from the long-hours of tv and laptop, and for me to miracously not-put-on from the lack of physical activities but constant feasting of good food *tee hee

Anywayz, no one is complaining about my weight except me hehe. It is so true that we; men, will never be contented with the things we posses, bcause we're constantly striving for things that we do not own.

Ironic, isnt it?

Well life is fill with irony. Surprise..surprise...

No sense

Yet another day; filled with emptiness and sorrowness lolx. Sounds depressing huh..hehe. No worries, im not writing another emo-ness post. Just wanted to annoy the 'fly'. Hahaha...

Actually there's nothing that i want to blog about, im just bored-out-of-my-mind! I woke up early around 7.45 am, and went for a jog. My left thigh started to hurt; muscle pull or cramp, i truly had no idea. Hence i just continued on, but i took a brisk walk instead.

Then came online, and wasnt surprise to see a few of my other uni mates. I guess their dying of boredom too lolx.

This is really a random post, i dont see the point of writing it lolx. It practically make no sense, and the 'fly' would probably chop me for wasting her time haha. Btw, im not playing maple like 'siow' ok, im siow to have actually even play it lolx.

Stuck on MS

Just a day after the holidays started; i was already running-high on boredom and restlessness. Hence, i decided to get my hands on a 2D-game called 'Maplestory' due to constant persuasion from the 'fly'; since then, ive been hooked on it.

Day and night ive been busy slaying mushroom monsters, slime blobs, ugly-looking pigs with red bows around their neck (weird, i know), and various kinds of evil snails that are trying to kill me lolx. Well not literally me, but my character.

Seriously, im clueless on what to do with the time that i have. Thought of getting a part-time job, but none would hire me for only 2 weeks.

Ive completed sorting and refiling my notes, cleaning my room and also washing the bathroom. Maybe i'll iron my clothes tmr, if im willing and in the mood for it. I really dislike ironing, one of the most dreaded housework ever!

On the contrary, i went out with some of my uni mates today. One Utama and Ikano to be specific. The four of us; Wi Yee, Christy and Yap basically went window shopping. However, Yap couldnt resist buying a t-shirt due to the rather cheap bargain. I saw various pairs of jeans and blouses that i kind of fancied, but ended up not purchasing any. Since the sale is till the 3rd Sept, ive plenty of time to go scouting for more varities and to consider.

Ive learned to be very thrifty because i cant afford to spend carelessly. I wish i could, but unfortunately it is a luxury that i do not posses. It is definitely not a terrible thing, because i have everything i need =)

Anyhow, we had a fabulous time. Lots of laughing and good foods!! lolx No wonder it is impossible for me to lose weight *giggles.

Was really glad that i got out today, or i would have been glued to my laptop, playing Maplestory lolx.

Maplestory is eviiillll.....muahahaha....

Never been so pleased

*sighs with relieve...

I am unbelievably happy-joyful-thankful-grateful that my finals have come to an end. Ive been anticipating for this day since the beginning of the semester; knowing that it would be one unforgettable crazy, hectic, driving-me-up-the-wall semester. Many unexpected and very suprising events took place too; some for the better, while the rest were truly unnecessary.

Even though the finals are over, a fog of uneasiness still surrounds me due to my own consciousness- that i might not have done as well as i wanted to for my finals. There are many reasons to why i did not; i can blame it on the limited time that i had or the load of assigments and reports that i had to write, or the grp members who were incorporative and whom made this semester a-living-hell-for-me!

I can continue to blame everyone and everything; yet in the end, everything falls back on me- because the choice of turning situations around is always in my own hands. There is nothing much to be done to make it all better, thus i would just have to face it and deal with it when the time comes.

Hence in the mean time, i'll just lay-back, relax and enjoy the holidays. Weeee? Hmm..we would have to wait and see.

Anywayz, let us get down to the good part of the post; FOOD! lolx.
Yesterday evening, after our final paper which was microbiology, a few of us- 7 to be specific went for a buffet; a steamboat buffet! *giggles excitedly..

Had a terrific and delightful time; cooking, scavenging, choosing, talking, laughing and of course, eating!! I was really pleased when it all came to the end. Those that were present, were classmates of mine that i never really hangout with me. Since everyone had a good time, it is most likely that we might have another makan session and this time, it'll be klang for the ever-so-delicious-and-mouth-watering BAHKUTEH!! lolx. Hopeful, the rest of the clan will be able to join along =)

My head is spinning, a million thoughts are running through my mind. It is impossible to concentrate and fully focus on the notes that im studying at present. My attention is being torn away from me, and its all over the place.

I strive earnestly to hold on to it, but my efforts do not avail. Suddenly im bombarded with all kinds of unexpected thoughts, ideas and even flashes of memories-ones that ive never put much thought into; the ones that i never knew could affect me this way.

I think im one step closer to insanity; it feels that way, and if i were to dwell in these feelings or atmosphere-i would surely be inane.

Lately, ive been overwhelmed with endless kinds of emotions; one moment, im happy and contented with myself but the next minute, clouds of regrets and loneliness would just hover over me.

'What is wrong with me?', i cried silently. 'Why am i having mixed feelings?', i murmured under my breath. 'Can someone help me?', i softly said.

The void that ive filled temporarily with the busyness of life; housechores, studies, food etc- has finally lost its effects. It only enlarges the hole, and trying to fill it again with the similar things would only cause more harm.

Oh Lord, i know ive pushed You aside too many times; even though i knew Your the ultimate answer to all these madness, and Your the perfect fit for the void that is present within me. Yet i keep on running away, searching for other alternatives to end this feeling of emptiness. Why am i so foolish? When You my Lord; my answer, my solution, my remedy, my joy, and my love has been right beside me- the whole time.

Would You hear my plead and forgive this soul? Would You restore my soul and renew my mind? Would You fill this heart with love and joy again?

Im sure that You will; which is the reason im running back to You, my sweet Jesus.

Being a child

Ive never really look forward to growing into adulthood, even though ive observed & experienced the attractive sides of being one. Some how the downside of adulthood, overwrote all the pleasant and right reasons for being one.

Honestly speaking, i dreaded the thought of me being an adult. Everything seemed simpler as a child. It was either, yes or no; no such phrases like 'maybe', 'i think so', 'im not sure', or 'im confused'.

As a child we knew exactly what we wanted or desired, there was no room for considerations. Im not saying that 'considering' is an awful thing to do, but it tends to make us doubt and it blurs our views; leading to indecisiveness.

'Do you want a slice of chocolate cake?', 'Would you like to play outside?', 'Do you have a crush on Aaron? I think he's cute too'.

Those questions above were truly easy to answer- as a child; it was either a 'yes' or a 'no'. However as an adult now, i would most likely reconsider, re-evaluate, re-analyse or even conduct a few experiments before an answer could be given for each questions.

For instance, the slice of chocolate cake sounds inviting, alluring and down-right delicious BUT, it's so FATTENING. Not only it is high-in sugar but also fat, cholesterol & additives. It is definitely harmful to my waistline, and it will only make me fat! As a child, it was just a simple YES and it would have been in my tummy within seconds!! No second thoughts or mumbo-jumbo as the ones stated above. (Thank God, my answer is still a yes but coated with a trace of guilt).

Even when boys were the subject of conservation, it was just 'yes, i like him' or 'no, his disgusting'. But as an adult, just deciding on whether we like a guy takes FOREVER!! The usual answer is always 'im not sure-la', and by the time we can come to a conclusion on whether we like the guy, he's probably no longer available; hence we'll get heartbroken, depressed and basically, cry-him-a-river.

I know i sound slightly paranoid; it might be due to the stress and tension that have accumulated because of my coming final exams (on the 8th of Aug, to be specific) or maybe i just dislike the whole idea that i'll officially be an 'adult' next month.

I wish adults would be simple-minded. Believe me, living life would be without a glitch.

I have to admit it isn't (being an adult) as horrid as i have imagined it to be, yet if a choice was given to me; i would love to remain as a child, though not for eternity but certainly- a lil longer =)