A presentation and a date tmr

I won't be going to the office tmr! Yay!
Unfortunately I'll be having my thesis presentation tmr *Boo! Hoooooo :(
But I'm looking forward to my date with Dan later in the afternoon tmr *hee

I feel really unprepared even though I've gone through the slides a couple of times since yesterday.
Maybe because it's been too long since I last touch or browse through anything that was related to my thesis.

I'll just surrender it all to God, and I believe that all will go well :)

Keep me in prayer yah *winks

I'm so happy that I'm not working tmr *jumps around and screams franticly :P

Enough is enough!

I can't continue on any longer!!!
I surrender.
I give up.
I'm waving the white flag. Can you see it? Maybe it ain't big enough *tsk

I'm just too exhausted to carry on anymore.
My neck hurts excruciatingly. My heads hurts tremendously, and my brains cells are extremely dehydrated. I'm sure they resemble over-dried raisins under the microscope.
Poor brain, it's way overworked.

After working my a** off for the past two days, I've still not succeeded.
Why is it so hard to produce 60 pages for my thesis writing?!!
I'm 3 pages away, but I'm already hollow inside.
There's nothing left to write, not a single idea, and not even a trace of motivation remains within me.
I might sound like a drama queen, but if you were to be in my shoes, you would understand the agony and pain that I'm going through right now.

My deadline is just a day away.
I think I'll leave it as it is.
If they choose to penalize me, go ahead! Couldn't be bothered anymore.
I thought quality was more important than quantity, but this is Malaysia lah - I should have expected otherwise.

Anyway, grades aren't all that. I should know better.
Honestly, I've no regrets.
I've done my best, my utmost best.
I'm proud of my work, and I've worked hard.
If my examiners wish to think contrarily, whatever lah.
I, yes me, Cassie, couldn't care less!

The good will always prevail. Amen! :)

All things good

I've been lazy, and also busy. Yes, been busy with thesis. But most of the time, I've just been plain lazy *smiles proudly.
Today I handed in my final, and complete copy of my thesis to my supervisor.
Sadly, I didn't make it to 60 pages. Only 45. 49 with references =_= I felt like a loser. Heard that some of my other peers wrote 70-100 pages!
Anyway, I'm not to be blamed. Those darn bacteria just refused to grow, so its mainly their fault. I'd not a single graph or chart or 3D plot to include into my results, because;
No bacteria growth = No results = 0, and 0 = thesis with less than 60 pages.

The bacteria grew in my control test, but not for the 'real-deal' one.

I felt sort of depressed while I was on my way to Uni, but I rubbed the feeling off and kept my mind on all the good people and things that I'm already blessed with :)

1. Valentine's Day was simply amazing. Amazing because I had the privilege of celebrating it with the man I love so very much. On that very special night; we smiled a lot, laughed a lot, ate a lot :) My only regret was that I did not take a single photo when I actually had the camera with me.

My valentine rose :)

We dined at an exquisite French restaurant (if I'm not mistaken, it's called La Bouche or something closed to that *hee) in Bukit Bintang. I guess I felt a little 'pai seh' to snap, snap, snap *hee
The food was yummylicious. It was my first time tasting goose liver. Its taste and texture is very similar to cheese. However the after taste isn't very pleasant. The appetizers were so filling that I ate less than half of my main course. I wish I had a bigger stomach to accommodate 'em all! The escargots was lovely. Dan coned me into having his share, but I really didn't mind because it tasted lovely:p
The place is pricey, but its worth splurging a little more (or much more) for a really delightful and satisfying meal. Darling, thanks again! :)

2. Dinner at Itallianies, The Curve. I've been to Itallianies numerous times for various occassions, but not with my two closest chicks :P It's been more than awhile since the three of us got together, and had a meal.

Joanna is back for good, and Trix has always been around. But she's been busy with work. Jo and I will soon join her in the working arena *yikes

We had Itallianies Mista Salad, Pasta and...

Pepperoni pizza!

But I still prefer the Smoked Salmon pizza *drools...

3. Nestle offered me an internship position!!! Will be collecting my offer letter tmr. They didn't even interview me, which came as a big surprise to me. It is truly God's favour and blessing. I'll be working in one of the world largest food company!! I'm so anxious and excited :) Internship starts next month.

I still have my thesis or VIVA presentation to prepare for, which is on the 27th of Feb (Wednesday). Hence I still have to keep my head in check, and not get too excited over anything yet *hee. Do pray for me yah.

CNY with a dash of thesis

I'm sure I'm not the only soul writing my thesis paper on the first day of CNY.
There's been very little progress; from 34 to 36 pages - its pathetic =_=
I'm practically squeezing every drop of brain juice that I have left. Unfortunately, I'm almost 99.9% dry and juice-less.
I know that my thesis project wasn't a failure (or maybe I'm saying that to make me feel better *haha), just so happen the results that I've obtained are all negative.
I guess the only thing that I can take comfort in, is that I gave and did my best. God, I surrender the rest to You :)
Thesis aside, reunion makan in Klang was good. Plenty of food, plenty of leftovers too :)
And this year we had pets to celebrate the new year with; a cat called Orange and a hamster that is yet to be name *hee

Thesis stress

Its half an hour to 5 am, and I've only 34 written pages. How am I to cough up another 26 pages in just a few more hours?!
Haih... the consequences of having a last-minute lecturer as a thesis supervisor.
I'm so dead la, please make me into a meat pie *sigh

Anyway it's like way impossible for me to even fulfill the minimum page requirement, which is 60.
My results are nil, therefore I've not a single graph or chart to include into my results.
And when there's no results, there's nothing much to discuss about.

I'm so tempted to write this as my conclusion, "This thesis project was a waste of my precious time. The end". :P

The holiday season made me an ass

I've been a lazy ass.
I'm barely close to completing my thesis writing, and I'd to set the deadline before Christmas.
Christmas is only two days away, and I'm not even halfway through.
The holiday season has definitely taken a toll on me; I've never procrastinated to this extend before.
Even though I'm way off schedule, clouds of guilt and worry are nowhere to be found.
I seriously need to be motivated, but I truly doubt that I've any more time left for motivation to sink in.
Therefore, these two coming nights will surely be long and sleepless - the price that I've to pay for being a procrastinator and a lazy bum *darn!

~Cass~

I dislike lab work

Wasted another day in the lab again! Hehe..just exaggerating. It was actually quite productive and my experiment was sort of successful. The downside of it is that I've to return to the lab tmr AGAIN, because of the electricity cut that occurred in Uni today. The electricity cut slowed us down, hence I've to complete what I couldn't finish today in the lab tmr. Bummer!

On the contrary, I almost forgot about Trix's b'day! It's tmr! I'm such a lousy friend. Please spank me! Thought of going down to Klang to celebrate with her, but I've lab matters to attend to, and I've only RM50 left in my pocket. Thus I don't think I can even afford to spend her a meal, but I'm sure I can get her a gift or maybe make her one *hee. Why do we need money for almost everything?!! *scratches head in frustration.

I'm so exhausted, and knowing that I've to get my a** back to the lab tmr, would make tmr another fun-less and tiring day. Yes, I'm overjoyed that there's no more exams to study for or even assignments to complete, but lab work has never been a 'Wah, so fun' matter either.

I'm just thankful to God that my thesis has been going on quite smoothly, few bumps here and there but no big deal la * hee

Trying it all over again

Spent another day in the lab today, and it was indeed energy-draining.
Been repeating the similar procedures for the similar experiment for the second time in this week, and I'm bored and frustrated.
The end result for the experiment today was slightly better than the previous day, but I was hoping for more than a 'slight improvement'.
I've altered almost all possible variables in the experiment, but everything has been unproductive.
Oh well, I'll just try it again :)

No longer bound by exams

I can finally scream from the top of my lungs; 'The exams are OVER!! FOREVER!!!' Muahahahaha... please excuse my insanity, I just couldn't contain it any longer *hee
While one horrible ordeal has come to its end, there's thesis to give me another ride of my life.
Met with the lecturer today, according to the missy; I'm way off schedule and I should quicken my pace or I wouldn't be able to complete my thesis on time.
Therefore, there wouldn't be any holiday break for me - I'll be back in Uni next week, working my a** off in the lab everyday!
The lab will be my second home, and bacteria will be my best friend for the coming 2 months. Addition to that, paper work would be my past time.
The worst part of it all, is that I wouldn't be able to spend as much time as I would like with the bass player. I miss him so terribly, till it makes my heart ache excruciatingly.
And I'll definitely have less time for outings with friends - but I'll try my utmost best to manage my time well, in hope that there'll be always time for the people that I love! :)

Back from the short hiatus

The holiday was great, till I refused to return home.
However, reality gave me a hard kick in the butt - so here am I, home again :(
Even though the holidays have only began, the list of things-to-do has already been listed out by the lecturers.
I would have to resume with my thesis real soon, and I'm definitely not looking forward to spending hours of my precious time - reading through journals again!
As much as I despise them, journals will be daily bread for the coming few months.

I've nothing planned out for the holidays, other than the need to catch up on sleep and more sleep *hee
I'll be home mostly, if my thesis supervisor doesn't calls me back to Uni.
This semester break would be all about rejuvenating, recuperating and re-energizing.

What a bummer, I've caught a cold and having a slight fever now. I'm off to bed.

Why oh why, did I had to have chocolates today? *frowns

I'm suffering from an excruciating migraine at this very moment.
The right side of my head has been pounding profusely since I returned home from uni.
I believe the chocolates (Nips) that I had this afternoon, triggered the migraine.
I've not had migraines for quite awhile, and today is seriously a terrible time to have one.
I'm still preparing for my thesis presentation tmr, hence the migraine isn't helping at all!
At times like this, I'd rather be dead. I know I sound a little crude, but this is exactly how I'm feeling right now.
Well I guess to most of you, this isn't something new.
I practically fall ill all the time, especially during the exam periods or when I'm extremely stressed out.
It sucks big time, but it's something that I've learned to live with.
As much as I would like to continue on ranting, time does not permit me to do so.
My other group members have been bombarding me with questions, and I'm getting really tired of answering - I think they malas to search the answers from the journals, and bcuz I underwent my internship at a microbiology lab; thus they expect me to know better *sigh
Do take note, I'm still a student. Therefore, I'm still a noob - so please give me a break la. Have some sympathy towards me and my overworked brain.

All work and no play, makes Cassie sleepy

My thesis proposal presentation is this coming Wed.
I'm having cold feet, and I'm so 'kan cheong' at this very moment - I think I might just puke.
Err..or maybe the puke-like feeling is due to the 3 large pepperoni pizza slices that I had for lunch? haha.. nah. I'm very sure it has nothing to do with lunch.
Lunch was great! And the cinnamon bread sticks were really sweet and yummy. Too bad I was already too full, or I would have had more :P I'm such a glutton *tee hee.
But the company was even better *grins :)

I still need to edit my presentation slides. However, I'm not in the mood to even look at 'em.
Have been enervated lately, because of the lack of sleep; hence I'll go off to bed right now, and will awake later to finalize them.

ZZzzZZZzzzzzz.....

Thesis is so tough la

I've finally completed the 1st draft of my thesis proposal! weee!
I've been awake for 22 hours, and counting.
Will be leaving for Uni in less than an hour.
Yes I'm sleepy, but no worries - I won't snooze off when I'm driving. Promise!
Will be going over to IJN (Insitut Jantung Negara) late afternoon, to interview the dietitians - some crappy assignment our lecturer gave us :(
Okla, I've to keep it short - need to start packing and get dressed for Uni.
Malasnya....